Edge Of Insanity

I stand at the edge of this precipice contemplating my reasons for being here
Was it the wrong choices made and the consequences to pay
Was it fate and a destiny so designed
Or was it a chance to test my ability to fly

There's nothing left to go back to
There's no way to turn back
All my bridges have been burnt
But the lessons remained unlearnt.

Talking for hours was a thing of the past
Conversation so strained that it takes much effort to last
I wish I could caress you and say it's alright
It cuts like a knife to know I'm the reason for your plight

As I linger here at the edge of my mind
My sanity is questioned about every wrong choice made in my life
Maybe letting go will bring freedom to my mind
It takes so damn much effort to cling to this life

Phoenix - 2 am rant

Will you remember me when I'm gone
Will you you remember the morning kisses and the awkward goodbyes
Will you remember the way I brush the hair from your face
And the often forced embrace...

Of course you won't because you despised those things
Not really those things but the person it seems
My touch is revolting it makes you nauseated
You said it made you feel violated

But what can I do and where could I go
When I touch you I feel safe and secure
When I touch you I get the strength to go on
When I touch you all my problems are gone

So I have to die to move on
An undeserving soul with no way to carry on
Baptized by fire a cleansing of the soul
Perhaps one day a Phoenix will rise and accomplish the unfinished goals